why is it that although one may give up everything in order to follow the path that God has called them too, they may still be jealous of old friends as well as new that may be living a life that is completly self involved. Even though they arn't serving God or others they seem to be enjoying themselves fine. why does life seem better on the other side. I mean, why is it that people you were once so close to, could all of a sudden turn on you and instead of lift you up, they will continue to just pull you down: emotionally as well as spiritually. i know if christians didnt go through struggles than their faith cannot possibly grow as much. But why is it the closer one may get to God the farther they may feel from old friends, why are we now not close anymore. How come although they might be nice people that don't really do anything bad, they may just drift farther and farther away from us. Why must things change. Why is it so hard to cut off old ties. I know, i know…God has a purpose, that everything that goes on in our lives is for a purpose so that we may grow to become the Godly man or woman God has called us to be. I just wish things would be different. I wish that God would make things a little easier for His children. Because at times…I'm tempted to just stop and do my own thing. But "to whom much is given, much is expected". So since I was blessed to recieve so much from God, I will continue to do His will. God has something great in store for me, and that will keep me driving towards Him at all cost…however hard it may be to let go of things.

1. KNOW THAT YOU ARE ANOINTED FOR THE JOB OR POSISTION YOU NOW HOLD!

2. DON'T EXPECT TO BE APPRECIATED

3.EMBRACE OPPORTUNITIES FOR CHANGE

4.DO THE JOB WELL WHILE REMEMBERING THE VISION

5.DON'T LET THE ENVIORNMENT GET INSIDE OF YOU

6. INCREASE YOUR CAPACITY TO WORK WITH DIFFICULT PERSONALITIES

7. WHERE YOU ARE IS NOT WHERE YOU ARE GOING

8. ACHIEVE OPTIMAL RESULTS WITH MINIMAL CONFUSION

9. DO NOT PLEDGE ALLEGIANCE TO CLIQUES AND GROUPS!

10. ALWAYS KEEP YOUR SONG NEAR YOU(YOU HAVE TO READ THE BOOK TO UNDERSTAND THIS ONE)

-T.D. JAKES

I liked Paris Hilton's new single.

 BIGGER CONFESSION:

I might end up loving it.

Courtney: Andy do you like my earings? I bought them yesterday at the mall.

Andy: Yeah, anything that distracts us from your face.

 

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My finals are all over, so i am all done with Fullerton. I got Dean's list for my third time in a row, I think that's a good way to end my time at Fullerton. I'm soooooooo happy to be going to Long Beach. I'm overjoyed.(I'm not sure that's a word)

 

o.k. so Andy has recently acused me of being the reason he is turning his lovey dovey blog in to a depressing blog or whatever. Do i not like his blog, no. I thinks its cute. The reason that i could have been misinterpreted could be that I'm just to negative and cynical  about love. But that's not true at all. I think the love between two people is a very powerful thing. But, however i think the term love is definetly over used and kind of waters it down. I think many people think they're in love and say they're in love, but arn't truly there yet. Like I just dont understand how jr. high people can be in love, when they havn't lived life enough to truly know what loving someone unconditionally is. Love is something that i believe just radiates out of your soul, when someones in love i think its very hard for them to hide it, because love naturally flows out of your soul. India Arie has this one song called "walk with you" that i think expresses the idea of love, the way i see it. When she sings it, you can tell that the lyrics are just comin out of her soul. However I could be wrong about the whole thing. Like some of my friends say, "..you (being me) can't say anything about it, because you've never been in love. You've never had a boyfriend. You don't know what's its like". This is true, so take my words however you see fit.

"Can I Walk With You"I woke up this morning you were the first thing on my mind
I don't know were it came from all I know is I need you in my life, yeah
You make me feel like I can be a better woman
If you just say you wanna take this friendship to another place
[Chorus:]
Can I walk with you through your life
Can I lay with you as your wife
Can I be your friend 'till the end
Can I walk with you through your life (fades away)

You've got me wondering if you know that I am wondering about you.
This feeling is so strong that I can't imagine you're not feeling it too.
You've known me long enough to trust that I want what's best for you.
If you want to be happy then I am the one that you should give your heart to.

[Chorus]

Now everyday ain't gonna be like the summers day.
Being in love it really ain't like the movies screen.
But I can tell you all the drama aside you
And I can find what the worlds been looking for forever.
Friendship and love together.

[Chorus]

Can I walk with you in your life?
Till the day that the world stops spinning.
Can I walk with you in your life?
Till the day that my heart stops beating.
Can I walk with you in your life?
Can I walk with you
Till the day that the birds no longer take flight
Till the moon is underwater
Can I walk with you
Can I walk with you

This is the moment I've been waiting for
Can I walk with you
Can I walk with you
Can I walk with you

You are everything I've been looking for
Can I walk with you
Creative intellectual
Can I walk with you
Can I walk with you as your wife

Oprah had a show about food and different things that you should look for in ingrediants on labels, and not put them in your body if at all possible, because of the drastic effects these foods can have on you over time. So now im constantly looking at labels, i guess thats a good thing, because im eating a lot healthier. 

FOOD HALL OF SHAME

Dr. Oz says to avoid sugar.Dr. Oz says to avoid high fructose corn syrup.Dr. Oz says to avoid enriched flour.Dr. Oz says hydrogenated oil is unhealthy.Dr. Oz says to avoid saturated fat.

(sugar),(high fructose corn syrup),(enriched flour),(trans fat) & (Saturated fat) 

There are things that are good for your body though.

FOOD HALL OF FAME

Dr. Oz says garlic is great.Dr. Oz recommends tomato sauce.Dr. Oz recommends spinach.Dr. Oz recommends raw nuts.Dr. Oz says pomegranates are good for your heat

(garlic), (tomatoes), (spinach), (nuts), (pomegranates)

The doctor that was on the show and ate the right way, looked amazing, and he was like fifty something. Eating right isnt about being thin its about being healthy. (I learned that from Oprah) Getting thin however is usually a byproduct of eating healthy.

"As the demands of each relationship and each season bring new roles and responsibilities, you must concentrate on the method by which you fulfill them rather than trying to measure your success by the world's approval. You must extricate yourself from the trappings of success heaped upon women in our culture today– the right house in the right neighborhood, the charming husband and the well-behaved kids, the successful career and the right image. Quit comparing yourself to everyone around you and forcing yourself to do what they're doing, wear what their wearing, be who their being. You must be a success in your own eyes– regardless of where you are in life right now– rather than compare yourself to those women with more clothes, more men, or more ministry success. It doesn't matter if you're working the register at Target or working as a registered nurse, you must mind your method if you are to carry yourself with dignity befitting a leading lady."

-T.D. Jakes

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once again my favorite singer india arie helps me to have another revelation about life. The first one was in about 8th grade when i heard the video song… "i'm not the average girl on the video, and i ain't built like a supermodel but i learned to love myself unconditionally, because i am a queen." from then on i had  been able to always be confident in who i was or just pretend i was confident.

 Now she comes out with this new song "i am not my hair", and it is amazing. You HAVE to see the video. As i was watching the video i realized that i have put way to much time in worrying what people were gonna think of my hair and making sure it was always with the norm of society.

Good hair means curls and waves
Bad hair means you look like a slave
At the turn of the century
Its time for us to redefine who we be
You can shave it off
Like a South African beauty
Or get in on lock
Like Bob Marley
You can rock it straight
Like Oprah Winfrey
If its not what's on your head
Its what's underneath and say HEY….

man you have to hear the whole song, its just all so ironic because i was just currently obsessing what i was gonna do with my hair.

(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
Does the way I wear my hair make me a better person?
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
Does the way I wear my hair make me a better friend? Oooh
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
Does the way I wear my hair determine my integrity?
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
I am expressing my creativity..
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)

however i decide to wear my hair it doesnt matter, now im not advocating walking out on the street without having given some care to your head. im just saying my hair doesnt define who i am. man why didnt you guys tell me i was being so superficial. thanks india.

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o.k so i got my hair braided today and it hurt so much, i mean it usually hurts but im just sick of all the pain i have to put up with for my hair. and getting it permed (straightened) hurts even worse because you have to sit with this burning chemical in your hair for like ten minutes. so ive decided im going to either get dreads like india arie, or go bald like nnenna from top model or get a fro (there were no good pics of this) right now im leaning towards fro, but im not sure.

if i got it done it wouldnt be till next year, but there is just so much to consider. because good hair can get you far in life, whether or not its fair, its true. Looks are everything in our society, im not willing to go through so much pain for it anymore though.

 -coco

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